I don’t like to wait. I am very structured with my time. I want things done when I want them done. Time is something that I am very aware of. I tend to rush a lot because I feel like there isn’t enough time. I have to get things done right now. Things need to be done like yesterday. I feel like waiting is a waste of my time. I only have so much time to get everything done. Part of this is because as a single mom, I do everything. There is no one else to help me do all the things that take up my time. Making dinner, cleaning the house, helping with homework- all these things take time. Add in 40 hours spent at work, plus the commute to and from work, that’s another 7.5 hours, plus the time I spend blogging and the time it takes to do the things I do for my church and the list goes on and on. All these things take up my time. I’m very aware of how much time things take. I don’t like to wait because I feel like waiting wastes my time. Every moment is precious and I don’t have much of it to spare.
God said something to me that shook my world. He likes to rattle my philosophies and theologies and I’m okay with that. Sometimes, it’s just what I need to get on track. God simply said “I am not bound by time.” Initially, I couldn’t wrap my mind around because my entire life is consumed by time. I was born at 9:25pm. By the time I was 5 years old, I had experienced a major traumatic loss in the death of my biological father and major life changes, moving to another state with just my mother. By the time I was 7, I was in a new family, my mother had married and I now had a baby brother. By the time I was 13, I was trying to figure out myself while going through puberty and adjusting to being homeschooled. By the time I was 17, I was sexually active and indulging in all types of new sins. By the time I was 18, I graduated high school only to find out 3 weeks later that I was pregnant. By the time I was 21, I was a single mother. By time I was 25 I was still working through college, and by all accounts, my timeline for the way life was suppose to go was thrown way off course. Now here I am, almost 30 and I’ve spent all this time and I feel like I don’t have much to show for it. Couple that with the fact that no one really knows when their time on earth is up. So it makes me wonder how much time do I really have left?
So when God said, “I’m not bound by time,” it made me look at God with a perplexed face. As I questioned God (with the utmost respect!!!) He said to me “Because I’m not bound by time, don’t rush me!” God showed me that I’m always rushing to get to the next thing because I don’t feel like I have enough time. I’m always rushing to work, to get my daughter off to school, to get the many things I need to accomplish done. I rushed to be a mother (not intentionally). I rushed to find a program post high school just to show I could do it while being a mother (which was a waste of time and money). I rushed into relationship after relationship which only produced heartache and failure and sin. All this rushing in my life has produced negative results. God said, “Don’t rush me! I will do things in your life when I’m good and ready.” God had to gently, but sternly, remind me that He knows my end from my beginning. Yes, I’m waiting on several things! I’m waiting to be married. I’m waiting to be able to do work that I love. I’m waiting to be financial secure. I’m waiting to be able to do everything that God called me to do in ministry. I’m waiting for a lot of things. But God said, “In this waiting, don’t let your anxiousness rush me.” Yes, I am bound by time, but God isn’t.
So, my dear friends, I don’t know what you’re waiting for. I don’t know what God has promised your or what you’re looking to have or what it is that you need, but I’ll tell you what God told me. Don’t rush God. Don’t rush past His timeline for your life. I can tell you from experience that when you rush, it doesn’t produce great results. When you rush past what God has planned for you and try to make it happen for yourself because “God is taking too long”, you won’t like the results. I guarantee it. Don’t rush. Wait on Him. The Bible tells us in Isaiah 40:31 that those who wait on the Lord will renew their strength. That word wait can be translated into the word trust. In your time of waiting, trust that God knows what He’s doing. Trust that He knows when you’re ready to have the things that He has for you. Trust that He knows what it’s going to take to mold you and get you prepared to be able to sustain those things. Trust God in a way that strengthens your relationship with Him and that brings you two into a more intimate space. Don’t rush past what He’s doing in your life. God’s not bound by time. Take comfort in that.
What are you waiting for? Have you learned the beauty in waiting? What scriptures do you use to encourage yourself?
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